My crazy but boring life

Stay at home mom with issues. I struggle with my life on a daily basis.

Friday, February 04, 2005

I started this blog as am outlet for me. I couldn't imagine that anyone would actually find it, much less read it. I know everyone gets comments that are mean and hurtful, and I understand that. I didn't think a stranger saying hurtful things would really affect me. I mean, I'm already wounded. But it hurts. Maybe I whine a lot, but it's my blog, I can say what I want, free speech and all that. But lazy? Anyone who has kids knows that you can't be lazy. Too much to be done. I am up everyday at 5am, and don't go to sleep until 11pm or midnight. In between trips to school, work, laundry, cleaning, cooking, and everything else I have to get done, I don't have too much time for myself. What I hoped for was that someone might read me, and give me positve feedback, not personally attack me and my husband. I know I shouldn't let it affect me, but it has. My husband may not be perfect, and in fact, is pretty fucked up emotionally sometimes, I love him. He doesn't beat me, he works hard, he does the best that he can. Usually when I blog it's so I can let off some steam in a somewhat constructive manner. It's usually when i'm upset about something (like now). It's usually theraputic. But not today. Oh well. I'll get over it. Oh, and by the way, Just cause I don't talk incessantly about my workouts or food comsumption doesn't mean I am doing nothing about my weight. Sometimes people need to vent. I hope you're happy that you made someone already fragile feel like crap. Thanks.